You promised...

Just finished watching The Glass Castle where I was brought back to horrible childhood memories where I saw the dysfunctional relationships between my dad and his demons.

He died at the age of 57 and only kept his promise when he died. 

I just turned 18 with many responsibilities that my friends did not have because their parents cuddle them and financially support them - I "missed" school for a year (only showed up for exams) just to work out how to pay off debt for my family and dealing with an incompetent lawyer that charged me 800$ an hour.

Walking into this lawyer, I could only see his big fat pig belly that made me sick. How can this person think that his service is worth 800$ an hour which Ive been doing all the work to close off my father's estate.

I remembered one day I walked on the sidewalk and rain started pouring, that was the only time I burst out crying because I knew nobody will noticed. I cursed my father and moved on - this is just part of life...

Fast forward 13 years, Im still living and damaged by all the things that a child should not have witnessed but it made me who I am now - unapologetic for what I want (yes I get called a brat many times but outsiders don't really know what Ive accomplished to be where I am), empathetic for some people and unconcern for others.

Thank you for not keeping your promise, you have taught me so much about life that no typical child see.

My brother looking at my father's resting body, the only pic that I have left.