I am a banana

So right now I am starting to settle down in a fast-paced city where friends and family are evolving and changing constantly - career wise and personal advancement. As for me, I am still trying to find myself within all the craziness. It is quite overwhelming being around successful and motivated family members. I am scared to disappoint and fall into the "useless person" category. There is a person that reminds me constantly of this fear. If I didn't have a supportive family that encourages me to follow my dreams, I wouldn't be here writing my thoughts. I feel so grateful that I have an amazing surroundings. I don't think I say it enough but thank you for being there when I need guidance - it must be hard to grow up without peers... I now don't envy people that don't have parents. Also, friends are important but they can disappoint easily because of my expectations. I will have to learn to keep my distance and not get hurt from them. I am definitively going through some hard times so I want to apology to people that I haven't contacted and talked because I don't want to transfer my horrible mood onto you.

Taipei

Taipei was fun when I wasn't with family except my cool cousin, it's been a while that I haven't visited Taiwan and the last time was 4 years ago for my honeymoon. 

The easiest way to die...

I am sitting in the Vancouver airport reflecting on my sudden trip to Taiwan. Life is so unexpected and can be taken away very easily by other people or things.

My husband is right, the easiest way for a person to die is to get into a car accident. Grandma got hit by a car at 5am and died on the spot with her skull in pieces and neck broken. I hope that she didn't die too painfully. The hitter didn't seem very shocked by it. In fact, when we went to court to settle this case, the judge automatically asked the defendant if he dealt with his two other cases. It was not surprising to me that he has done something like this previously... Oh life in Asia is so different than life in America. I wouldn't want to live in Asia permanently.