Mugwug: I am a banana

So right now I am starting to settle down in a fast-paced city where friends and family are evolving and changing constantly - career wise and personal advancement. As for me, I am still trying to find myself within all the craziness. It is quite overwhelming being around successful and motivated family members. I am scared to disappoint and fall into the "useless person" category. There is a person that reminds me constantly of this fear. If I didn't have a supportive family that encourages me to follow my dreams, I wouldn't be here writing my thoughts. I feel so grateful that I have an amazing surroundings. I don't think I say it enough but thank you for being there when I need guidance - it must be hard to grow up without peers... I now don't envy people that don't have parents. Also, friends are important but they can disappoint easily because of my expectations. I will have to learn to keep my distance and not get hurt from them. I am definitively going through some hard times so I want to apology to people that I haven't contacted and talked because I don't want to transfer my horrible mood onto you.

Taipei

Taipei was fun when I wasn't with family except my cool cousin, it's been a while that I haven't visited Taiwan and the last time was 4 years ago for my honeymoon.

Things that I will miss about Taipei is the food. I LOVE the food!! Gained 10 lbs in a week and trying to lose it back home, lost 5 lbs already in a week (I think this is just the water weight, I was so bloated out there). I tried taking pictures of things that I have eaten but it was hard to think of taking a picture when you are admiring and salivating over the food coming.

Trying to write but my bil (brother in law) is playing the saxophone in this big house where the walls and the size of it amplifies the sound! I can't think!!!!!!! He finally stopped and is playing a video game. Taiwan was not so hot as I imagined, it was bearable and good weathered at night. I guess that is why there is a "real" night life. Amazing food, cheap market, lots of people out, things that are opened 24 hours. So why am I calling myself a banana? This term is used in North America where you are yellow skinned but inside, you are white (western culture), therefore, I am a banana. I look Asian but inside I am Caucasian. It's very strange, sometimes I have to remind myself that I am not Caucasian - I feel so white!